I feel like I'm blunking (thank you Mandy) for writing this, but I love you all you guys!! Everyone has really been there for me in our section of the universe and I can't express in words how much this has meant to me.

Much love to everyone! If you're not into beer or abstaining due to treatments, try a green bagel (it's just food coloring)!

It is very hard to pick just one blogger to praise, because there are so many special ones out there whose words touch me every day.

So I'll pick two, representing the two subjects I write about most myself: Pamela Jeanne at Coming 2 Terms, for being such a huge inspiration to childless-not-by-choice women; and Mrs. Spit, who so often finds exactly the right words to express what babyloss mothers feel.

http://www.coming2terms.com/
http://mrsspitspouts.blogspot.com/

I will have a glass of Bailey's on the rocks to toast these two bloggers as well as the others ahead of & after this post.

And Mel, your first sentence made me laugh. I just KNEW when I clicked on your blog today that I was going to find a St. Patrick's Day edition of the Virtual Lushary. I would have been disappointed if I hadn't! ; )

Not too much interesting happening in my life right now. But there are signs of spring, & not a moment too soon! I did learn on the weekend that stepBIL's baby is going to be baptized on Mother's Day (!!!), but I'm not going to think about that just now...!! (Where is that Bailey's??)

Hello one and all,

I'm bad for lurking, and I have read so many great wonderful things across a wide swath of IF blogland. One that I keep going back to is Antigone's story (http://antigonelost.com). Her story, and her triumph has captivated me, and I aspire to have as much power as she displays!

I'm giving myself my first ever Puregon injection tonight, for an IUI with my very own Dr. E.vil. He holds out so little hope for me (for many reasons), that I seek out hope from other sources. This is one of those places!

So, while I abstain in rl, I plan on whooping it up here! Make mine a full pint of Guinness (the only time in the year I will drink it!).

And, to be sure, a toast/blessing to you all: "May the holes in your net be no larger than the fish in it."

-Tally (whose rl name is very irish!)

I'll start with a thanks to Ella, http://ellamybabylove.blogspot.com/ She has been there for me even when she has had a lot going on in her own life. Although, now things are looking up for her!

There are so many others, but it is just hard to think of everyone.

I'll take a green=appletini or 7. I'm off to go make funeral arrangements for my brother who just passed.

There are so many blogs and bloggers I absolutely adore and Mrs. Spit, http://mrsspitspouts.blogspot.com/, is at the top of the list. She can make me laugh as easily as she can make me cry and she always know the perfect thing to say when I need comfort.

I also look forward to reading Murgdan at http://murgdan.blogspot.com/ when she posts. She always says exactly what I'm thinking only funnier!

--Babies mentioned--

This is the first time I've been able to pull up a seat at the virtual lushary on a good day. After my OB appt this morning, I left feeling like I might actually come home with a baby and for the first time ever, I'm excited to be pregnant. It has been a long time coming.

I know I'm repeating myself by singing her praises here, but Angrycanrn has given me so much. And I don't mean just the beautiful embryos she donated to me, but her love, her faith in me, and most of all, an incredible amount of hope. Hope can be so fragile and fleeting sometimes, but she has been my life raft.

I'm tired from getting up before dawn for monitoring this morning, so how about an Irish coffee to mark the day. Maybe it will help the headache I have from the bagpipes and snare drums outside my office window. Yes, I work in midtown Manhattan. Right on Fifth Avenue. Starting point for the BIG parade.

Emmy, just popped over to your blog. I'm so sorry for your loss. How unbelievably awful.

I have been lucky enough to stumble upon Brenna's blog, The Real Bean. http://therealbean.blogspot.com

She is certainly one of the toughest women I've ever "met" and I have loved reading her entire story backwards. She faces daily grief and always has a kind word for other bloggers, including me. When she wrote this post, I was truly inspired to tell others how much I admire them. Check it out! http://therealbean.blogspot.com/2009/03/what-heart-needs.html

I would LOVE to drink today, but am awaiting a 5 day transfer of some cute little embryos on Friday, so I'd better stay on the wagon. I am excited, nervous, okay TERRIFIED that it won't work. Can I sleep until the Beta?

Happy St. Patrick's day!! :)
Carrie

Lately, I've been bitching about my husband's girlfriend (not really, our next door neighbor is crushing on him and I like to tease him) because she is starting to become a bit stalker-ish.

One of my fav bloggers is Tobacco Brunette - she is hilarious and brave.

Another is Bloorb - because she is just AWESOME - and she just got her BFP (although it wasn't how she thought it would be - it is still great news!)

I can't praise just one blogger. There were so many who comforted me, held me up when I was drowning, so many are still holding me up. They have all been wonderful, and they know who they are. I will never be able to come up with the words to express the gratitude welling up in my heart.

I'm recovering physically from my second miscarriage, and awaiting my appointment to begin repeat loss testing. It's a strange place, not trying, not pregnant, not anything but mending.

Tipping a glass for

Amy at
http://ourbabyboy25.blogspot.com/ for writing beautiful prose, poetry, and posting images that honor her baby and all who walk a similar journey. Nearly every post I read, nod my head because her words resonate. You may not have found her on Stirrup, yet.

Stephanie at http://beautyinthebreakdownart.blogspot.com/ she posts bereaved parents' art in image & verse and shows her understanding of the need for Art in healing.

Mother Henna at
http://motherhenna.blogspot.com/ who also shows and prompts all to use Art for expression, healing, and celebration.

Mrs. Spit at
http://mrsspitspouts.blogspot.com/ who writes compassionate, loving and sometimes painfully raw stories of life and love after loss. She challenges us to look within and discover a better we.

Snarky at
http://snarky-belle.blogspot.com/ who never fails to leave a comment of support, love, and validation from one baby loss mommy to another. We both have an overall belief that one should speak and make your voice heard. (Though, I'm guessin' to be polite I'll be lifting sparkling water to this lady!)

Oh, dear, I'm hogging the blogo-comment-space, and I'm getting e-tipsy! I have so many more bloggers to tip my glass too. Everyone who's on my blog list--sending much love and peace.

Me too, cant pick just the one, impossible, too many fantastic bloggers out there :) x

I would thank beautiful mess (http://wesingwedancewestealthings.blogspot.com/) for being so incredibly supportive of me as a relatively new infertile (and new infertile blogger). I also love reading Murgdan's hilarious posts at Conceive This!, and she has been super supportive, too. (http://murgdan.blogspot.com/).

IRL I just had a delicious chocolate shake from Jamba Juice. Otherwise, I'd like a nice, rich, fruity glass of red wine.

I'm just getting started on my second IUI cycle - baseline u/s today!

I know this flies in the face of St Patty's Day, but I hate beer, so I'll just have a Mt Dew/Capt Morgan mix. Hey, it's green!!

I'll give me praise to Cathy at Tomorrow is Another Day because her snark keeps me sane all day long.

May I have a virtual Australian Shiraz please!

I'd like to toast 2 Bloggers:
Beautiful Mess from Life Induces Thoughts Mostly Random.
http://wesingwedancewestealthings.blogspot.com/
Check out her post from Sunday March 15th. She writes about how she questioned her place in the ALI community. GASP! I can't imagine this place with out her. Who cares if she has never had to deal with ART treatment, she belongs here. So if you have ever received the same amount of loving support from her, please go and leave a comment on her blog, that you're glad she's here!

Eve from Infertility Rocks.
http://infertilityrocks.wordpress.com/

This IF stuff is heavy and I always feels like she helps me lighten my load with her antics and humor. She is very talented and I wish I could be as inspired to write as she does.

As far as moi? I'm five days into a 2ww on IUI#2. I'm sucked into the reality that if this is unsuccessful than there will be no baby in 2009 for us and that IVF will be our future in June/July.

But, on a positive note, I'm pretty excited about the fact that I just mailed out a very difficult letter to my pregnant SIL. She has been a bit miffed about the fact that I haven't been able to be joyous about her pregnancy. I feel good about it. Your welcome to check out my recent post how/what I wrote.

Cheers!

Hopefully I can type without TOO many typos here because of the tears that are swarming in my eyes, threatening to spill over *blink blink* OK, got em under control. Liv and Sunflowerchilde, your toasts to me are so sweet and "thank you" doesn't even begin to cover how you are making me feel right now. If I could list every blog Ive ever left a comment on, I would. I would like to toast every single one of you! ALL of you are an inspiration to me and make me strive to be a better woman. Since I gave up beer for Lent, I'll have a delicious glass of red wine. Thank you so much for allowing me into your life and hear through your beautiful words. I would also like to have a glass of wine for my mom. Today is one of those days I'm wishing I could call her and hear her voice.

It is hard to pick just one or just a few, but I'll sing the praises of Deathstar, since I just met her yesterday and she is as splendid in real life as she is on her blog. I wish I could spend hours with her every week - her wisdom, her humour, her stunning beauty, and her enormous, loving heart - she is amazing.

I'll have a lime margarita to help quell the nausea. And cause it would match the bright green flamenco shoes I just bought yesterday.

Oh yeah. My grandmother's funeral was the drunkest drunkfest ever. I was twelve and my uncle was giving me shots. Lordy. I swear despite bloggy evidence appearing to the contrary that my liver is intact.

I would like to give props to *everyone* but to pick one at random who is amazing, I would like to give mad props to s.e. at http://ridingrollercoaster.blogspot.com/
So often when I am feeling like crap and just doing nothing but rolling about in my own muck, I will click over and no matter what difficulty she is facing s.e. lists what she is grateful for that day. I think that is beautiful. I think she is beautiful.

I just fell in love with Caitsmom's term: e-tipsy.

I love, love, love Mo and Will at http://lifeandloveinthepetridish.blogspot.com/. Their Sundays of Grace have helped me keep perspective. Such beautiful thoughts. They address the struggles we all face with humor and humility. Hat tip to them!

This is my first time here and my stupid computer is not allowing me to hyperlink, but I really want to openly let Martha at comicallyflawed.blogspot.com/ know how much her relentless support over the last few months has kept me afloat. Thank you Martha!
So after putting out the fire that is my mom's alcoholism, I have stepped in the dog turd of infidelity. I think. Kind of. I guess it is more like pre-infidelity. Anyway, my guy and I are working it out, but I could use advice, and a drink. So here I am.
Thanks,
Judy
averyopenbook.wordpress.com/

I toast Mel--you are amazing and your writing is a balm for the spirit-- and Chris + Lani at elmcitydad.wordpress.com. Their love for each other and Silas comes through in all their posts. I would like to toast everyone with sangria featuring fresh slices of orange, lemon, and lime.

First of all, thanks so much Liv for metioning me in your toast. I'm going to have to toast back to her for a post that I have read several times about her gratitude for her RL friends and blog-friends: http://the-life-of-liv.blogspot.com/2009/02/i-like-you.html.

So many more wondeful ones! I'm such a newbie here but so grateful to everyone for letting a kid like me join the team.

As far as my life...well I'm on my first 'bigtime meds' cycle and an IUI...which is exciting. The NOT exciting part is that my hormones are indicating POF (premature ovarian failure), so I'm thinking the show may be over for me soon.

I'm drinking a RL golden margarita as I type. Jealous?

I have received so much support from this Community, that it often leaves me stunned for words.

But I'd like to give a special shout out to WiseGuy (http://ovulationticker.blogspot.com/). She is a special lady; always thoughtful and often goes the extra step of sending me email comments about something I've said on her blog. She's also got a great sense of humour, which I can appreciate. I love her honesty and openess.

*Pregnancy Mentioned*

Pour me a lovely virtual, well anything! I'm celebrating another great ultrasound and appointment with my OB. Bean was bouncing around and I'm getting confident that this pregnancy will conclude with a baby.

How about some sparkling wine?

I would like to thank all of the bloggers I've come in contact with in the IF community. I don't think I would have made it through the last 2 years without you all and know I wouldn't make it through the next one or two without you all.
As for my drink, I used to get this keylime margarita with grahm cracker crumbs on the rim that was so yummy. I'd like one of those please.

Heres to the lovely Luna at http://lifefromhere.wordpress.com/ whose big heart shines through each page of her blog.

Love to you

(and to the many other inspirational and courageous women who've become so important to me over these last few years)

Josh as he navigated the library parking lot: "Do you think that guy is Benjamin Buttons? Because he looks young, but drives like an old man."

This is hilarious. If you read the 25 things about me, you'll know that these are thet types of lines that will keep me laughing for days. (I may even steal it)

There are so many blogs that are great and I have way little time.
So... I would like to thank Mel for this blog. It has allowed me to find so many other cool blogs to read. (I'm checking out all the ones mentioned here today, even though it will probably take all day) The other is InfertilityRocks! I would have liked to be reading this blog while still in the trenches of TTC, but even though I'm not, I find this blog really entertaining. Eve, you rock! You too, Mel :)

Fingerboard the blarney stone!

I'm fairly new to exploring the world of Internet IF support. Besides this blog which has been a tremendous resource (thank you so much for making it so!), I've been checking out

http://goodegghunting.blogspot.com/

and

http://birdsandsquirrels.wordpress.com/

regulary. I'm also grateful for the comments here, which are pointing me towards more places to get my fill of Me Too.

Personally, waiting for my period (this is an off cycle) so we can start Clomid #4 and IUI #1 (and hoping for ovulation on the right side this time so we can avoid magical tubal migration).

Tipping my glass (I'm in the mood for a sauvignon thank you very much!) to Chicklet at Bloorb as well (I have NO IDEA how to link here, sorry). She just rocks. On SO MANY LEVELS.

Ok, I'm toasting a WHOLE BUNCH of people, starting with Mel, the Stirrup Empress, without whom so much interconnectedness simply would not ever happen. I LOVE YOU MEL! And I'm not just saying that b/c I'm drunk! Because I'm not! Yet! :-) Hey, it's only 4 p.m, give me time :-)

Toasting with a Guiness:
Mrs. Spit, because she is amazing. Heart of gold doesn't even capture the richness of this woman's soul. She writes so movingly and beautifully, and SMART? Are you kidding me? Must read. http://mrsspitspouts.blogspot.com/

Antigone, who has been to hell and back, who has some serious backbone, who inspires me.
http://www.antigonelost.com/

Dr. Grumbles, who is sarcastic, funny, smart, and one of the most determined people I've ever "met."
http://docgrumbles.wordpress.com/

Nica, because she loved Mama so much. http://nicaintheafterlife.blogspot.com/

Rachel, who has such a sweet and tender heart, and is a major, major talent with cakes. I seriously had no idea cakes like that could exist.
http://raspberrychip.blogspot.com/

Farah, who tells it like it IS.
http://fertilizeme.blogspot.com/

Alexa, who has the kind of sense of humor I only aspire to - completely witty, great zingers, and overall such a way with words. http://flotsamblog.com/

Natalie, Devin's mother. She is one of the most courageous people I can think of.
http://lunardreams.net/baby/

As for me... (Parenting after IF), June is just around the corner - my mental deadline to start TTC again... I'm scared spitless when I think about it. Not knowing what my ovaries will do after weaning V. Not knowing whether our sex life can survive the current sleep deprivation. Not knowing how long to DIO before going back to the Drs. Just not knowing. Trying to live in the moment and be thankful, which I am. Daily.

Ok, pour me a Nutty Irishman!
1 oz Bailey's® Irish cream
1 oz Frangelico® hazelnut liqueur
1 oz cream
over ice. MMMMMM!

I'm going to thank Dramalish at http://babyquestblog.blogspot.com/, because she always amazes me with her compassion even in the face of struggles, and Kate at http://theonlybeeinyourbonnet.blogspot.com/, because she makes me think and think some more!

I'll have something with a lot of alcohol. There's a lot going on in my life right now that I wouldn't feel comfortable blogging about, and so I think about my blog and haven't written in ages. I missed writing about K's one year anniversary home, which I'd been planning forever (I even had a partial draft saved). There were other events that I thought "Ha, I'll have to blog about that!" But when I sat down at the computer, the words weren't there. And so my blog remains empty of new posts...and I'm not sure how to start again.

I'm tipping my glass (filled with a mudslide) to the wonderful Dora. She is a truly fabulous lady with so much class and style. I hope and pray this cycle works for her.

I had a delicious sangria "sin alcool" in Spain, so I'll take another one of those.

My status: simultaneously thrilled, shocked, and scared shitless after my sky-high 2nd beta yesterday and the way I got pg in the first place (IUI with no reason to work).

Dora (http://isothegoldenegg.blogspot.com/) is a truly wonderful person. Lori (http://weebleswobblog.blogspot.com/) gives me new insights constantly. And I am the luckiest girl around because I am supposed to meet both of them in person in the near future.

I want to toast Kym at
I'm a Smart One because though our stories are quite different she makes me laugh and she inspires me.

And most importantly, I want to toast Mel because she made me feel like it was okay to be part of this community. And I know for sure that whenever I'm having a bad day, I'll find words of comfort from her or from one of the many hundreds (thousands?) of other wonderful people on her blogroll.