tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post4569628130583034466..comments2023-08-15T05:02:58.115-04:00Comments on Stirrup Queens and Sperm Palace Jesters: Many Kisses and Ruby SlippersLollipop Goldsteinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01020874415819057995noreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-63078697926663526862008-12-19T11:41:00.000-05:002008-12-19T11:41:00.000-05:00wait, what? Seriously? They weren't called Ruby ...wait, what? Seriously? They weren't called Ruby Slippers? For two years I've been totally convinced they're called Ruby SLIPPERS! <BR/><BR/>What the hell is wrong with me?Ms. Perkyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06923832430040384294noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-71237673008319791292008-12-19T03:58:00.000-05:002008-12-19T03:58:00.000-05:00I'll have one of those ruby slippers as well. I di...I'll have one of those ruby slippers as well. <BR/><BR/>I did an IUI last year, right about this time, and ended up feeling like such a elpless freak because I wasn't able to handle it. The hormones gave me hot flashes, I was moody, one second laughing, one second cring, oh, and the weight gain. I haven't been able to shake the weight off yet. It wasn't so much the failure that got me, I'm used to not being pregs, it was the package. I told my husband (in tears) that I couldn't continue. I had spread my legs for one too many insensitive doc that seemed to see me as a walking uterus and nothing more.<BR/><BR/>Fast foreward to two months ago. I told the husband that if we could change fertiity specialists, try to find someone a bit more human, who just might listen, I'd be willing to try again. Husban cried out of joy, and off we went. New doc (a woman to my relief) asked us to do all the tests -minus the hsg (I said no) again. We did them. Yesterday we called to make an appointment for the thirteenth day of my cycle so that she could do an eco. <BR/><BR/>"The clinic will be closed for ten days and your 13th falls right in thhe middle of that period."<BR/><BR/>I try to explain to the secretary that every moment counts, and that we are leaving France in a couple of months, and do not have much time. I plead with her at least for a general consultation before the clinic closes, as I will have all of the other results, and already did all these fracking tests a year ago, at which time the results WERE ALREADY BAD, so they aren't going to be better. Can't we just get on with this? Don't you people understand.<BR/><BR/>She did her job, with a gentle, cold, firm 'no'. <BR/><BR/>"The doctor will not be available for consultation before February."<BR/><BR/>I fell into a liimp ball and wondered if I could make it that long.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-67978089497499232372008-12-18T15:13:00.000-05:002008-12-18T15:13:00.000-05:00Bah, a magnum of Cristalino or something similar w...Bah, a magnum of Cristalino or something similar would be fine.<BR/><BR/>After three months of waiting for my hCG to drop after my first and only pregnancy, my period decides to make further treatment and holiday plans mutually exclusive. <BR/><BR/>A silly end to a sucky year.Shinejilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03353174053245279899noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-91456938517731611142008-12-18T14:09:00.000-05:002008-12-18T14:09:00.000-05:00I am blessed and still worried-- And my sister has...I am blessed and still worried-- <BR/><BR/>And my sister has really hurt my feelings and a bit mean. I just want to rest for a bit while drinking something tasty. Surprise me.Grad3https://www.blogger.com/profile/01507004280070094471noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-54742979177422073832008-12-18T13:01:00.000-05:002008-12-18T13:01:00.000-05:00Something stong please... hard enough to make me f...Something stong please... hard enough to make me forget today. <BR/><BR/>Today was my due date. The only one I've had in 5 1/2 years.<BR/><BR/>Please make me forget.Meimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03610015959570193019noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-24178018457034357462008-12-18T11:17:00.000-05:002008-12-18T11:17:00.000-05:00I think I just want to sit and listen to the hummi...I think I just want to sit and listen to the humming noise in the room for a bit. I want to be lost in others' stories. I haven't posted about what's troubling me, but will perhaps get around to it soon. I'm healthy, we're all in one piece, damn economy though. Can I just have something warm to drink, please?TeamWinkshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00750935087962085588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-81716146892591458792008-12-18T10:38:00.000-05:002008-12-18T10:38:00.000-05:00Crap, I didn't say that the preferred drink of the...Crap, I didn't say that the preferred drink of the day will be that fun little ruby sLipper please.chicklethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16090701824999372199noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-69924750078759973932008-12-18T10:37:00.000-05:002008-12-18T10:37:00.000-05:00We're starting IVF#3 today, with a hysteral-a-ma-w...We're starting IVF#3 today, with a hysteral-a-ma-whosa-ma-whatsit. I think that says it all...chicklethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16090701824999372199noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-11220408850708245092008-12-18T08:37:00.000-05:002008-12-18T08:37:00.000-05:00Oh the insanity. We will be moving into our new h...Oh the insanity. We will be moving into our new house this weekend and then hosting 20 people for Christmas dinner 4 days later. The house won't be perfect, but I want to celebrate at home (where I can be in charge.) I guess it is good that I have been so busy so I haven't had as much time to think about the babies we lost. I sometimes find myself obsessing over everything I remember from the hospital. Is this normal? It's like if I forget what happened I will foget that baby. I told you I am crazy at the moment. I guess my gift this holiday was finally getting my period. It has been 6 months since we saw a heartbeat, you wouldn't think it would take so long. Anyway, although this year sucked I am still feeling blessed to have such wonderful support through the tough times. You all are welcome in sunny AZ anytime you need to escape the winter.maryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15393529724751767155noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-56104759437943832532008-12-18T08:30:00.000-05:002008-12-18T08:30:00.000-05:00For the first time, I don't really want a drink wi...For the first time, I don't really want a drink with alcohol. I've been sick all week. Maybe a milkshake. Someone else was having that and it sounded good. 2008 was probably the best year yet with the baby finally with us. But the loss in October still gets me down. We're supposed to try another FET in January. It will be our last shot, please excuse the pun. After that we'll have to decide if one is enough or go through ivf all over. I can't even imagine that right now. Im trying to get my mind around being a family with a single child. The dreams of three have all but faded. I'm just scared he'll be lonely. That idea makes me want to keep going. Happy Holidays to everyone. I hope everyone's dreams come true in 2009.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-4010388663560414292008-12-18T08:21:00.000-05:002008-12-18T08:21:00.000-05:00Hmmm... I would love a glass of red wine, and you ...Hmmm... I would love a glass of red wine, and you can leave the bottle.<BR/><BR/>I think I made the right decision this cycle. We decided not to do anything, and I think that decision was based in part on being able to drink during the holidays. Something about alcohol makes the holidays and family easier to take. <BR/><BR/>We juat finished an IUI with injectables cycle, which obviously was BFN. (Can't you tell, I am drinking, a lot!) Sigh. We are trying again in the new year. I may try to get our DI stuff together in the new year, as well. I think we are heading in that direction. <BR/><BR/>At least I can drink this holiday season. It will make it easier to deal with my in-laws, who have no clue about infertility. All I will hear this holidays season about about the babies and the children in the family, making me feel really empty. Thank goodness for alcohol.VA Blondiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05009448598943286061noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-49012233628393998782008-12-18T00:59:00.000-05:002008-12-18T00:59:00.000-05:00I'd like a glass of red wine, please, and keep the...I'd like a glass of red wine, please, and keep them coming because we're going to be driving from Kansas City to San Antonio and back for Christmas and will suffer while there because my racist, narcissistic, OCD grandmother will be in attendance. Plus my MIL is INSANE ever since Evie was born. I loved my MIL for 10 freaking years and never really understood MIL jokes. Now I do. Other than those two complaints, my Christmas is all goodness and light and cheer for the first time in years.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-86321815812849308982008-12-17T22:35:00.000-05:002008-12-17T22:35:00.000-05:00It looks like you all had a great time...how nice ...It looks like you all had a great time...how nice to all get together in person!<BR/>*******<BR/>I'll take a glass of Pinot Noir.<BR/><BR/>Oh, and can I go to sleep and not wake up until Friday?<BR/><BR/>Five years ago tomorrow, my Mom lost her very brave, almost 5 year battle with Ovarian cancer. I was seven months pregnant with my daughter. <BR/><BR/>I find it hard to feel the holiday spirit until after December 18th.<BR/><BR/>Yeah, I'll have another glass of wine...Photogrlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13709453130822429881noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-17776405101775120502008-12-17T22:24:00.000-05:002008-12-17T22:24:00.000-05:00You all look like you had so much fun!! I want to...You all look like you had so much fun!! I want to come to your get together some time. I may have to plan a trip around that. <BR/>Now, for my drink. I'm still in that numb is good stage. So with that in mind I'm reminded of the long island iced teas we used to get at the shilo inn in Seaside, Or. They came in fishbowls. I'd like one of those please.battynursehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02240029154165501340noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-32172705515047178782008-12-17T21:28:00.000-05:002008-12-17T21:28:00.000-05:00I need an imaginary drink to steel my not-so-imagi...I need an imaginary drink to steel my not-so-imaginary nerves. What is it about upcoming appointments that can leave you flat on the ground even though nothing has even happened yet? It just need to keep my head until 1:45pm tomorrow.<BR/><BR/>How about a lovely glass of cab merlot? Or two?The Steadfast Warriorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07974289349468760667noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-71012653629384324892008-12-17T21:15:00.000-05:002008-12-17T21:15:00.000-05:00Can I have some Vodka and Coke?I'm having a bad da...Can I have some Vodka and Coke?<BR/><BR/>I'm having a bad day. My husband's dental surgery is dipping into my injectable funds, and making me wonder if I'll ever have the money saved up now. I'm just so frustrated. I've got a frickin' cold, on top of my husbands upcoming surgury, cycle day one is almost upon me and I am going to be trying soy... so probably no Ov for me. Again. Ha, I have Ov'ed a grand total of 2 times in 2008. Not only that, my EDD of my loss is January 3rd, and I'm depressed about that. And my birthday is next month. And I've been trying to have a baby for about 2 years now, and I just want to SCREAM.<BR/><BR/>I feel a blog post coming on. (*sigh*)<BR/><BR/>Can I have another shot of Vodka?AnotherDreamerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11487881766884178761noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-16386334356439643322008-12-17T21:05:00.000-05:002008-12-17T21:05:00.000-05:00Mel, I hereby declare that your next group meeting...Mel, I hereby declare that your next group meeting should be held in Sydney, Australia.<BR/><BR/>XOXOXOXOXTopcathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07281866717498277448noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-21860398305209918592008-12-17T19:07:00.000-05:002008-12-17T19:07:00.000-05:00I'll drink anything at this point, but I like dess...I'll drink anything at this point, but I like dessert wines, so I'll have some 20 year old tawny port.<BR/><BR/>I swear that when my husband and I ... uh... um.... do our intimacy thing (yes, I know this is an infertility blog and I should be able to say this flat out, but on someone else's blog it somehow seems wrong) during my fertile time, I get symptoms like sore b00bs and stuff, which promptly go away when it's time for AF to arrive. But when we don't, my symptoms aren't there. Is this psycho-somatic? Do I invent an almost pregnancy each time just for hope to build me up and then beat me down? Or is there something truly chemical going on?<BR/><BR/>Honestly, I'm baffled. I just don't understand it.<BR/><BR/>This is why I need to drink.Rachelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12460332191706365559noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-80091953313488428012008-12-17T18:48:00.000-05:002008-12-17T18:48:00.000-05:00Hello there. I would like a hot mug of Abuelita Me...Hello there. I would like a hot mug of Abuelita Mexican chocolate milk. I am dreading the prospect of surgery and have not called my RE's office to remind them to schedule it but I am hurting and waiting for the next cyst to rupture and know I need surgery At the same time my thoughts are on the three boys we have our eye on to possibly adopt. And it's cold here. I loved the pictures of your get together was so FREAKIN JEALOUS of the support and encouragement I felt oozing from them. How edifying that time together must have been.Guera!https://www.blogger.com/profile/12616928404421960462noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-75952859097450785422008-12-17T18:39:00.000-05:002008-12-17T18:39:00.000-05:00First Christmas without my dad: it's going to suck...First Christmas without my dad: it's going to suck.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-31129383433510407672008-12-17T18:18:00.000-05:002008-12-17T18:18:00.000-05:00Hold the drinks for me, please, Mel - though I hav...Hold the drinks for me, please, Mel - though I have reason to celebrate. Many people are calling this my Christmas miracle, but being of the Hebrew persuasion, I'm calling it: "A Great Miracle Happened Here". I am 42 - had completely STOPPED trying to have a baby, didn't know the day of my LMP - and what the hell: knocked up!?!?!? At least for now!!!<BR/><BR/>So I guess it's some warm milk with a little vanilla shot in there for me!<BR/><BR/>I am, of course, thrilled - but also scared, freaked out, confused, you name it. First off, we've had 5 documented miscarriages -- though in none of those pregnancies did we see a heartbeat, which we did this time (yesterday!). Secondly, WTF!?!?!? We were getting our heads around no kids; we're old; we're freaked out and I've decided that I'm lazy and selfish -- not great parenthood material, wouldn't you say????<BR/><BR/>Also, I HATE to reinforce the "just relax" stereotype!?!?!? AHGhghghghg. I don't even like to tell people that. I know for so many of my bloggy sisters and brothers, no amount of relaxing is going to do SHIT!!! I'm sorry everyone, for feeding into that b.s.!!!<BR/><BR/>And it feels too weird blogging about my rising betas, eps and the like. Too weird.<BR/><BR/>Still, I'm nursing all the hope I can muster along with my warm milk.<BR/><BR/>As for the holidays? No sweat. Don't celebrate. There will doubtless be some tension as my step daughter will be in town with her mother. It's all good when she comes on her own, but there are always strange and stressful hijinks when her mother tags along. Let's hope this pregnancy lasts and I can have a MAJOR distraction!!<BR/><BR/>To those of you who celebrate Christmas: have a good one!! <BR/><BR/>To everyone else: see you at the movies!<BR/><BR/>peace<BR/>shlomitAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-51801257081020726402008-12-17T17:50:00.000-05:002008-12-17T17:50:00.000-05:00Since I'm trying to be incredibly virtuous with th...Since I'm trying to be incredibly virtuous with this pregnancy (I don't want to find myself in a spot where I have to wonder if I ate/drank/bathed/lifted/whatever something wrong...ah, guilt and nerves, such a great combination), I'll just stick with a glass of club soda and cranberry juice with a twist of lime.<BR/><BR/>S and I are dealing with a rather high level of stress. I'm tending towards the "Sleep through it" route, while he struggles to find a balance between wrapping me in bubble wrap and sticking me in the closet for the next nine months and actually letting me live a little. I'm learning to be careful about complaining about any little ache or twinge because pregnancy-related or not, it sets him off. Starting a new pregnancy at about the same time we lost the twins last year makes for a strange blend of emotions.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-26881820762762252632008-12-17T17:34:00.000-05:002008-12-17T17:34:00.000-05:00that get together looked so fun!I really need a vi...that get together looked so fun!<BR/>I really need a virtual drink since I'm having none IRL. Get me a bottle of a good French bubbly, so I can relax, laugh and forget that I'm in my 2ww. <BR/>I actually celebrate the Winter Solstice so I'm cooking a fantastic dinner on Sunday.<BR/> DH's nephew, who's 16 and has been living with us for the past 5 months, is leaving in January! hooray! I'll toast to that. <BR/>And I'm really hoping that our spare room will then become a nursery...<BR/>cheers!Petruciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15779047222262497847noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-47753969570218139912008-12-17T17:08:00.000-05:002008-12-17T17:08:00.000-05:00I'll have a coffee and kahlua and maybe some of th...I'll have a coffee and kahlua and maybe some of those tom waits cookies if you don't mind. Seriously I'm still thinking about those damn cookies. <BR/><BR/>The holidays are an emotional time for me. I remember the year before last trying to hold it together at family gatherings shortly after my miscarriage, and then last year feeling really unfomfortable finally outing my pregnancy at the family gathering (mind you I was 5 months) and this year although B is here safe and sound I still feel the sting of the years prior. <BR/><BR/>Oh and am I the only one totally jealous of their get togethers? It looks like so much fun.FattyPantshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08471930990530375865noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30259745.post-58376941535230236682008-12-17T14:49:00.000-05:002008-12-17T14:49:00.000-05:00Hmmm, I'd like a Jim Beam and coke. Make that a do...Hmmm, I'd like a Jim Beam and coke. Make that a double! <BR/><BR/>This year has been the worst ever, but for some reason I'm deliriously optimistic for 2009. We've been TTC #2 for over a year. Just found out DH has some issues, not sure what they are, won't know until January. Doesn't help that I don't ovulate regularly. <BR/><BR/>All that aside, I really am looking forward to the new year. After I finish this batch of Opk's i'm done buying those and worrying about that 2nd line.<BR/><BR/>I'm soooo incredibly thankful for this sight and being able to meet people going through the same things. It puts life in perspective.<BR/><BR/>How about another drink so we can talk about how great 2009 is going to be?<BR/><BR/>I hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday season. :-)<BR/><BR/>http://starsandbabies.blogspot.com/Melis.sahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11383636143112620937noreply@blogger.com